I feel compelled to take a few minutes out of my crazy schedule to share a few words about my dear Grandma. If you have followed me on Facebook at all, you may have seen that she went into the hospital a few weeks ago as she was very ill. After being in the hospital for a week, her health took a huge turn south and things just progressively went downhill. My mom and I stayed in the hospital by her side for the last 6 days of her life. Watching life escape her body was definitely the hardest thing I have ever done. I am not even sure I can form the thoughts or the words to describe just how hard that time was….and yet in the same breath just how precious those remaining days with her were. The sweet look on her face during those days will be forever etched in my memory. Even when she could no longer speak, mom and I could feel her emotions from time to time….even to the point of wiping away a single tear that formed in her eye. I know that she was fighting death as she didn’t want to leave us here…but I also know that her body was so tired and it was time for her to go Home. Last Tuesday, I laid in the bed with her and just held her. We thought she was going then as her stats flat lined for a brief moment and her breaths were incredibly laborious. However, that was not quite her time. This time was given to me and mom to hold her, sing to her, talk to her and love on her one last time before she fell into a peaceful sleep with her heart rate stabilizing. She rested ever so peacefully that night. She passed away last Wed around 4:25pm. I’m so sad to say that that was the one time period that I was not there…I arrived shortly after she breathed her last breath. Though I know that I was not meant to be there, there is a pain in my heart.
There are truly no words to describe just how much she meant to me. My Grandmother played a huge role in my life while growing up. She was like a second mom to me. Growing up without a dad proved to have many challenges as most of you probably know….which is unfortunately more of you than should be. However, my G’ma and my mom shaped so much of who I am today. I’m not sure that my dear G’ma ever really knew just how much I loved her and just how much I learned in life from her. She was a rare breed for sure. She is definitely one of the most selfless people I have ever known. She never put herself first. She was known as a Proverbs 31 woman and her children and grandchildren will rise up and call her blessed.
The tears are now streaming down my face as I reflect upon her life. I am so thankful to have had such a wonderful G’ma in my life for so long. Here’s to passing this legacy to my mom in her having the same impact on my 3 kiddos as I know that they all love her just as much as I love my G’ma.
Here are the last “pro” pics that I did of her. These were taken in December of 2008. Here’s to honoring the most incredible G’ma in the world with a heart bigger than life. Thank you G’ma for the huge impact you had on my life and for the legacy you have left behind. We love you dearly and you will be so missed.
by photobyaw
3 comments